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::11.29.2003::

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

heh...

>> Alan spun round and round on 11/29/2003 11:50:00 PM (0) comments

Wo0t!!!

Just got back from this awesome show, it featured 2 time blues album of the year winner Mark Cook, damn it was a sweet show. Now for the great news, tomorrow night 9:00 @ One Star Ranch 732 North Main St., Alpharetta there will be one more show, and the cover price you say?

FREE!!!

I'll be there, come on out, if I'm in a good mood maybe I'll buy you a drink either way, you still get a free night of good music, and good fun. (I'm officially a hundred years old, why the f@#% did I say that cheesy 'good music and good fun' line...) Seriously though, come on out, Mark is a great guitarist, and definitely worth spending an evening listening to, besides I could use the company.

>> Alan spun round and round on 11/29/2003 12:01:00 AM (0) comments

::11.27.2003::

Happy Turkey Day!!!

I came, I saw, I feasted. I feel (scratch that I know) I ate way too much, and after eating I put half a bottle of white wine in my gut, so now I’m desperately trying to cut down the hangover I’m gonna have tomorrow with a big assed bowl of Ramen Noodles and a case of Sprite. Yeah, it was a good holiday. At least tomorrow I’ll have a better reason to hate myself other than women, so in the immortal words of Robert Frost “Smile, tomorrow's going to be worse.”

>> Alan spun round and round on 11/27/2003 09:13:00 PM (0) comments

::11.23.2003::

This is one paper that I wrote for my college applications. I said long ago that I wanted to start putting my writing on my site, so with my having to redo my portfolio for SCAD (Savannah College of Art and Design) I've found a bunch of old papers. I 'll probably post one every sunday, since most sundays I don't have a whole lot to write about.

Topic:
John Keats said, “Even a proverb isn’t a proverb to you till your life has illustrated it.” Please tell about an experience in your own life which illustrated a proverb, maxim, or quote that has special meaning to you.

Who ever said, “One never realizes what it is they have until it’s gone,” is a genius. Though I doubt if they’d realized the power of this simple truth at first, but then again does anyone truly realize this until they’ve lost someone near and dear to their heart? I have been told this many a time, yet have never taken it to heart. But believe me; I would know I lost someone that meant a great deal to me, a young lady who was a good friend of mine. Don’t ask me her name, as I’m not willing to tell, my story however, is yours to hear if you wish.

I remember I first met her several years ago on a mid-summers day. I was at the pool with several friends, when this group of girls approached us. They knew my younger brother and were curious as to my true relation to him, and as that summer turned to fall and in due time, winter; we all got to know each other.
One of the girls and I became close friends but, once school started and the pool closed, we didn’t get to see each other, having our own lives to deal with. This is how the years progressed; summers were reserved for hanging out either with just her, or her with the whole group at the pool. And in the fall we parted ways, peering ever forward to what the next summer would convey to our adventure seeking hearts. It wasn’t long ago now that all of this changed.

We were in the park, on one of our frequent walks; it was just her and I. Suddenly, she turned to me and asked why I’d never kissed her, explaining that she had never spent this much time with a guy who hadn’t tried to hit on her. Well, this was a rather awkward situation for me. I’d never thought about it like that, still she was right. Neither of us had thought the other to be a best friend, which would be a highly logical reason for our hanging out so much; nor had we looked at each other as being boyfriend/girlfriend nonetheless, I cannot say that I was not attracted to her. Not knowing exactly how I should reply. In one hand our friendship; the other, how much I really liked this girl and how much I enjoyed just being around her. I froze panicked and we ended up going our separate ways. This happened several times, until one day I thought “to hell with it, I like this girl and she must obviously like me if she’s being this blatant about a kiss”, so I leaned in and kissed her. The walk back to her house seemed endless, neither of us knew what to say next, and upon reaching my own home I still saw the whole happening as a pleasant excursion from reality. My vacation however, soon turned to an obsidian nightmare.

Our relationship started out like any other, the novelty of it, similar to that of a tropic sunset. Then, as in life, the sun retreated to its hovel and the shadowy twilight was set into motion. It began with petty arguments, “We hung out with your buddies last night, let’s go to lunch with my friends instead,” and the next thing I knew it was, “This just isn’t working anymore.” Maybe I should have compromised more, or maybe she should have, maybe it was just time to start seeing other people, but no matter the reason, the end was very ugly. We both ended up just saying that we didn’t want to see each other anymore.

And there you have it; here I am remorseful for the choices I made, wishing that it could have stayed at friendship. What happened to her you ask? To be honest, I can’t enlighten you on this. We’ve talked a few times trying to patch things up between us, and at this point I really miss her. I miss our walks in the park, I miss talking to her, and I miss just hanging out. I mean we spend our lives seeking to find that one person who we don’t get sick of seeing as they grow old, that one person who we could spend the whole day with and still wonder “what should we do tomorrow” at the end of the day, that one person who we never tire of seeing their face or hearing their voice. And here I am having realized brilliance; here I am having finally realized how much one can miss that which they once had.

>> Alan spun round and round on 11/23/2003 10:13:00 AM (0) comments

::11.19.2003::

Warning : Sappy!!!

DISCLAIMER *** This entry contains material meant for either a specific person, or material that I’ve written and feel that I should publish. Thank you very much; you may continue reading at your own risk. *** DISCLAIMER

A person that I hold very dear to me asked recently what my philosophy was on the ‘ideal place to live’. The answer that I gave this person was what they wanted to hear, and not what I meant. I’m writing this now to give them my real answer.

The here, the now, the present, this very year, this very day, this very hour, this very second; these are the ideal places to live. Wherever one is when they are truly happy, whatever they’re doing, however they perceive the things around them, but most importantly of all (at least to me), who it is that they are with. If you haven’t gained this knowledge of me by now, those who I surround myself with day in and day out are what makes me the happiest and for nearly six years I’ve never been happier than when you’re near. I’ve found people that have come close, but none have been exactly the same as when I’m with you. I told you once that I didn’t want to say three words because I didn’t want to end up being a person who flung them around to get his way, it’s often funny how similar we are to the things we so dislike. I may say ‘I love so-and-so’, but not the way that I love you. The connection that I have with these people is completely different.

Sarah always has her own way of taking something so simple, like a back wood road or a drive to the store, and turning out some mystifying secret in such form and fashion, that one cannot help but melt.

Kristen was always smart and trustworthy. And wise, let us not forget wise, I could always turn to her whenever I had a problem.

Kori was bubbly and fun, you could always expect to have a good time with her around, and come away with more than expected.

Ash was flirty relished in it and knew exactly what she fancied, this was what was great about her, no matter how hard you try, one couldn’t get her to say exactly what it is she desired.

Amy was mysterious and intriguing, she was always so quiet one couldn’t help but want to know what was behind those eyes.

Natalie was the first, and I cannot truly say what it is that makes me feel about her the way that I felt, and occasionally do to this day.

You, you are truly something else. I’ve known you the longest, and never thought of you the way that I do, until that day in the park. You make me feel like anything is within my grasp, I haven’t written anything of merit in almost two years, and yet after spending one evening in your company, I want to write until there is no more parchment on this earth, until I must pick up a stick and begin to doodle in the sands. I want to shout to the heavens the euphoria I feel in your presence, but cannot find the words. After the bitter ending we had so long ago, you’d think I’d have changed, my feelings left to curl and wither in a cold lonely place, yet it has been my whole being that has withered while emotions merely slumber. I cannot change the past, nor make you feel the same way I feel about you, but I can truly say that you’ve changed me and that when you leave, you cannot say that you will not be missed.

>> Alan spun round and round on 11/19/2003 10:52:00 PM (0) comments

::11.17.2003::

Yep, I'm bored... I've got way too much time on my hands...

I own!!!

You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.

What Matrix Persona Are You?
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Say Anything...

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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"You Shook Me All Night Long" (by AC/DC)
'Cause the walls start shaking
The earth was quaking
My mind was aching
And we were making it and you -
Shook me all night long.

Which 80's Song Fits You?
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Congratulations!! You're a tall glass of nice cold
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What Drink Are You?
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Are you damned?
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You have been naughty. You are the sort of person who used to pull off the wings and legs of flies when you were a child, and giggle at the black speck that remained. Evil is written right through you like 'Blackpool' through a stick of rock. You malingering deviant. Prepare for eternal damnation. You deserve it.

Which Survivor of the Impending Nuclear Apocalypse Are You?
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To drink my weight, I would have to chug 114 pints of beer!
How big is your beer belly?
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I think I've *drunk*(drank) that much before... or at least it felt like i had the next morning.

>> Alan spun round and round on 11/17/2003 04:53:00 PM (0) comments

::11.12.2003::

I am hooligan, hear me roar!!!

Hooligan Bear

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>> Alan spun round and round on 11/12/2003 07:11:00 PM (0) comments