::3.02.2003::

Yes, well today sucked for 2 reasons.

1) Zippy, I love ya, but I'm not going to go and hang out with you anymore, mainly because I'm tired of how much you like he who shall not be named (for many a reason) and yet, you do nothing. Part of the reason they call love a 'game' is because thats what it should be, ask the guy out already, the way you two were digging on each other this afternoon was obvious. I think that you should go for it even though he maybe leaving would you rather that he leaves and you end up regretting it for god knows how long? Believe me, I've made the mistake of doing nothing quite a few times and the results are no picnic. Did you ever think that maybe he'll change his mind and end up going some where closer? Besides I think that I really screwed up this friendship when we had that whole “are you digging on me” conversation, because since then you’ve been very distant.

2) Damn all that makes us human, damn semantics, damn emotion, damn all cognitive thought, but most of all damn two young women who won’t get the f*$! out of my head. It's depressing knowing that there is a woman who you miss and cannot figure out how to fix things with, and another who you know you shouldn’t do anything about; yet you can’t help but want to change both of those things. You can’t help but want to change yourself, to change your past, present, and future; but your past is doing nothing but holding you back.

Right well, I'm going to shut up now.

>> Alan spun round and round on 3/02/2003 09:39:00 PM